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What is a structure?  That infant is a structure, that foetus is another structure, that strand of fetal hair is a third structure, that mouse is a fourth structure, that mucus is a fifth structure, that cloth cord is a sixth structure, that amniotic cavity is a seventh structure, that amniotic fluid is an eighth structure, that laryngopharynx is a ninth structure, that oropharynx is a tenth structure, that nasopharynx is an eleventh structure, that trachea is a twelfth structure, that sinus is a thirteenth structure, those clumps and lumps of viscous meconium —— are the fourteenth structure, that constricted neck —— is a fifteenth structure, those two earlobes tugged by the rat —— are the sixteenth structure, those two nostrils pressed by the rat —— are the seventeenth structure, that rat’s four incisors — is the eighteenth structure; the eighteen claws and toes of that rat —— is the nineteenth structure; that kind of cavity within the trachea —— is the twentieth structure; that sort of crevice within the sinuses —— is the twenty-first structure; the ‘resistance’ within that cavity —— is the twenty-second structure; the ‘confrontation’ within that sort of crevice —— is the twenty-third structure… The gestational age of that foetus and the chronological age of that infant are two distinct structures, yet they share the same ‘unbound imagination' and ‘silence’, the same ‘sheer origin’ and ‘sheer terminus’, the same sheer intuition, and indeed the same universe… "Sameness” is also a structure; the “origin” and the “terminus” are each a structure; “unbound imagination” and “silence” are each a structure; “sheer intuition” is a structure of countless inevitable pain; the “universe” is a structure of countless inevitable dead angles… A ‘dead end’ is also a structure; time is a structure that must contain dead angles; both the foetus and the infant are resisting time within these dead anges —— allowing ‘silence’ to resist the ‘utter impossibility’ within time until 'existence becomes possible’ —— and allowing ‘unbound-imagination’ to resist the ‘utter non-existence’ within time until 'existence becomes possible’… ‘Existence’ is itself a structure, whilst language is a structure that inevitably harbors pain; within the ‘silence’ and ‘unbound-imagination’ of that foetus or that infant, there is no pain caused by language —— no pain carried away by language —— nor any pain left behind by language —— nor any pain of being ‘split in two’ by language or ‘deconstructed and pieced together into countless fragments’ by language —— and certainly no pain of using language to ascertain ‘whether it exists’…… ‘Whether or not it exists’ remains a structure, whilst ‘illusion’ is a structure that inevitably seeks to confirm whether the ‘ego’ exists; neither the ‘silence’ nor the ‘unbound-imagination’ of that foetus or infant seeks to confirm whether the ‘ego’ exists —— neither does it seek to confirm whether the ‘vivid ego’ exists —— nor does it seek to confirm whether the ‘ego in time’ and the ‘ego in space’ exist —— nor does it seek to confirm whether the ‘ego in the universe’ exists —— nor, even less so, does it seek to confirm whether the ‘ego in life’ exists……“ ‘Life’ remains a structure, whilst ‘sheerity’ is a structure that necessarily coexists in parallel with ‘life’ and is one with it; the ‘silence’ and ‘unbound-imagination’ of that foetus or infant are both sheer —— both coexisting in parallel with ‘life’ —— both fused and in synchrony with ‘life’ —— both life that 'exists-in-unity’ —— both the 'existence-in-unity’ of life —— all are ‘existence-in-unity’ —— and all are life.

Structure is life.

Life is sheerity.

Sheer origin is the ‘origin of life’.

Sheer terminus is the ‘terminus of life’.

Sheer intuition is ‘life’s intuition’.

Life is ‘existence-in-unity’.

Sheerity is ‘existence-in-unity’.

Structure is ‘existence-in-unity’.

The ‘silence’ and ‘unbound-imagination’ of that foetus or infant are both life’s intuition—both sheer intuition—both a life structure that is ‘existing and unified’… both ‘silent’ and ‘unbound-imagination’; within ‘silence’ there is ‘unbound-imagination’, and within ‘unbound-imagination’ there is also ‘silence’; “Silence” is the dead angle of “unbound-imagination”, and “unbound-imagination” is the dead angle of “silence”… A dead angle, like an entrance and exit with no origin or terminus; when approaching the exit —— it is as if approaching the entrance; when approaching the entrance —— it is as if approaching the exit; when reaching the entrance and exit —— it is as if stepping into the entrance; when reaching the entrance —— it is as if stepping into the entrance and exit… That infant, as it approaches ‘silence’ —— is close to ‘unbound-imagination’ ——and as it approaches ‘unbound-imagination’ —— is close to ‘silence’ —— and as it enters ‘silence’ —— is stepping into ‘unbound-imagination’ —— and as it enters ‘unbound-imagination’ —— is stepping into ‘silence’… That foetus’s “silence” and “unbound-imagination” —— are like two infinitely parallel universes; “silence” is Universe A, “unbound-imagination” is Universe B; A and B operate independently —— neither can perceive the other’s existence; A1 within A operates alone —— A2 within A1 also operates alone —— A3 within A2 still operates alone —— these four (the ‘Pure A’ group) are all unaware of one another; within B, B1 operates independently —— within B1, B2 operates independently —— within B2, B3 still operates independently —— these four (the ‘Pure B’ group) are also all unaware of one another; between the ‘Pure A’ group and the ‘Pure B’ group —— no whole or part can perceive the existence of any other whole or part… However, B₁ within A is also operating independently, and A₁ within B is still operating independently; within B₁ there exists A₂, within A₁ there exists B₂, within A₂ there exists B₃, and within B₂ there exists A₃; thus a parallel emerges between the ‘mixed A group’ and the ‘mixed B group’ —— yet no whole or part within them can perceive the existence of any other whole or part… To take it a step further, A¹ within A is also operating independently —— A² within A¹ is still operating independently — and A³ within A² is operating even more independently, B¹ within B is also operating independently —— B² within B¹ is still operating independently —— B³ within B² is still operating Independently, thus giving rise to a parallelism between the ‘micro-A group’ and the ‘micro-B group’ —— yet no whole or part within them can perceive the existence of any other whole or part…… Since ‘meticulous detail’ equates to ‘infinite expansion’ —— ‘blending to the extreme’ equates to ‘infinite unity’ —— ‘singularity to the extreme’ equates to ‘infinite existence’, therefore, when that foetus is both ‘silent’ and ‘unbound-imagination’ —— in an instant, it is equivalent to the A-universe and the B-universe undergoing infinite expansion through a structure of ‘existence -in-unity’…… Moreover, since time and space do not exist within that foetus’s sheer intuition —— nor do “language” and “the pain of language” —— and “illusion” exists even less, when that foetus is both “silent” and in a state of "unbound-imagination” —— the instantaneous expansion of this “existence-in-unity” structure is equivalent to the eternal creation of an infinite universe in which Universe A and Universe B are indistinguishable from one another… Suppose that the universe created by that foetus as it approaches the ‘sheer terminus’ infinitely closely (namely, the infinite universe in which Universe A and Universe B exist infinitely and are infinitely fused) is the smallest universe (M); and suppose that the universe extending infinitely from that foetus into interstellar space is the largest universe (N); and that M and N exist in parallel and are fused as one —— M and N possess the same structure —— M and N are linked together —— M is a dead angle of N —— N is also a dead angle of M —— M and N are mutually unaware of one another… But what, exactly, is it that links M and N together? Pain.

What kind of pain does that foetus experience? I do not know.

What kind of pain does that infant experience? I do not know that either.

What kind of pain does the smallest universe (M) experience? The same pain as the largest universe (N).

And what pain does the largest universe (N) experience? It is ‘incompleteness’ —— though the expression ‘not yet complete’ would be more accurate —— expressions such as ‘failing to perceive completeness’, ‘failing to perceive the completeness of ‘ego’’, ‘failing to perceive the completeness of ‘ego’ from the dead angle’, or ‘failing to perceive the completeness of ‘ego’ including the dead angle’ would be more precise… But does N possess ‘ego’? Can N be both outside the dead angle and within it at the same time? How does N ‘perceive’? How does N ascertain whether it is ‘complete’? How does N distinguish between ‘failing to’ and ‘being able to’? How does N define ‘from’, ‘to’, ‘including’ and ‘within’? As such, I have absolutely no idea what N’s pain entails.

What is the difference between ‘this one’ and ‘this kind’? A and B are both ‘this one’, and M and N are also both ‘this one’; A and A1, A2, A3 are ‘this kind’, and B and B1, B2, B3 are also ‘this kind’; A and A₁, A₂, A₃ are ‘this kind’, and B and B₁, B₂, B₃ are also ‘this kind’; A and A¹, A², A³ are ‘this kind’, and B and B¹, B², B³ are also ‘this kind’… At the same time, the ‘single A group’ and the ‘single B group’ are ‘this kind’, the ‘mixed A group’ and the ‘mixed B group’ are also ‘this kind’, and the ‘micro A group’ and the ‘micro B group’ are still ‘this kind’… However, each of the above is also ‘this one’, and every combination is also ‘this kind’. Can such an imprecise expression as ‘A = B = M = N = any = all = stochastic disintegration = stochastic splicing’ really hold true?

Would that infant, untouched in the slightest by any language, know what ‘valid’ means?

Would that foetus, still suspended in amniotic fluid, unable to control its bowel movements, and swallowing amniotic fluid laced with meconium, be able to distinguish what constitutes an ‘inaccurate expression’?

Would a meteorite floating in space—at any moment liable to be blown to pieces or swallowed whole—understand what ‘disintegration’ or ‘splicing’ means?

Could that mouse comprehend how its four incisors and eighteen claws are classified and combined?

Or let us return to that word —— pain. What, exactly, is pain?

No mouse is here to answer this question.

Nor is there a meteorite to answer this question.

A foetus is either a dead foetus or a living foetus; how, then, can it answer this question?

An infant is either a dead infant or a living infant; how, then, can it answer this question?

A human is either dead, or alive, or half-dead, or asleep, or floating and drifting in a dreamlike or intoxicating realm as if feigning sleep; they live with hands and eyes, or without hands and eyes, or with some hands and eyes, or with extra hands and eyes, or they live with language, or lives with scripts; or lives with one language and one script; or lives with two languages and two scripts; or lives with bricks and paper; or lives with steel and plastic; or lives with fibre-optic cables and wires; or lives with green trees and white clouds; or lives with wild beasts and wildflowers; or live with resilient grass and drifting sand, or live with morning dew and the rising sun, or live with snow-capped mountains and glaciers, or live with numbers and mirror images, or live with symbols and theatrical costumes, or live with bow ties and cufflinks, or live with masks and anklets, or live with the scent of flowers and the song of birds, or live with rats and meteorites, or live with the plum rain and bamboo, or live with castles and tomb passages, or live with gender and persona, or live with laughter and tears, or live with silence and elegance… How exactly should one answer this question?

That infant lives solely with sheer intuition.

As long as sheer intuition exists, that infant exists.

As long as sheer intuition is complete and intact, that infant is complete and intact.

As long as sheer intuition sleeps, that infant sleeps.

As long as sheer intuition awakens, that infant awakens.

The pain of that infant is the fracture of sheer intuition.

What is the ‘fracture of sheer intuition’? It is sheer intuition being ‘incomplete’.

‘Incomplete’ again! Is it still that ‘incompleteness’ of N (the greatest universe)?

I was wrong; yet, ‘sheer intuition’ knows no right or wrong, only ‘structure’.

[Unfinished. To be Continued]